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Last Updated: 6/14/2023

I don’t know if I can come back from all this now. I’ve been shut in my room for like 3 days straight just looking at porn and jerking off (I know I'm a girl but whatever) and I just. can’t stop. I’ve tried everything to make myself stop but I just keep coming back to it. It's practically hardwired into my brain, at this point. I just do it whenever I'm stressed or angry or sad or whatever. It makes me feel good but I just feel so disgusting afterwards. I wanna throw up.,
I keep remembering all the times when I was a kid ,I would mimic all the girls I saw in anime because I thought peoplr would like me if I acted like them. I remember touching my friends and my brother because I thought it was normal. I didn’t know any better, but why did I do that. What the fuck. Why did my parents even give me internet access. I just wanna throw my phone in a lake but I would get in trouble lol. Fuck, I shouldn’t be saying all this. People are gonna think I’m weird. I’m so fucking sorry. I’m sorry to all my friends. I;m sorry to my brother. I’m sorry to anyone who has to put up with my bullshit. I’m shaking lol. I should get off and res.t I know I won’t though :(

-Estrella